Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Balancing Act

I've rewritten this post at least three times, and it's making me crazy.

Basically, I'm planning a deviation from my pattern of losing weight for my next two weigh-ins, April 1st and April 8th. Instead, my goal is to remain at last week's weigh-in weight of 156 by April 8th. And okay, I'd prefer to be there on April 1st as well.

The reasons for this move are legion:
  • We've had relatives in town (see details on the Cakestravaganza).
  • My Oh-Kill-Me-Now fortieth birthday is this coming Friday, April 2nd.
  • Easter is Sunday, and with that comes a) the brunch buffet, and b) the Reese's Peanut Butter Eggs.
So I'm just not planning on a loss, and will hop back on the caloric deficit train on Monday, April 5th. Ultimately, I'm trying to work that out in my brain. Am I caving, wimping out? Am I planning to fail? Am I afraid to blast through these few days and keep this amazing streak I've got going?

Or am I being realistic? Do I just know myself well enough to realize that I will feel horribly deprived if I don't give myself these special days (hello, only turning forty ONCE thank God)? Does the fact that I'm tracking every calorie, including the 800 I consumed yesterday due to my poor choice to sit right by the chips, dip, crackers, and cheese show my commitment to accountability and my continuing dedication to maintaining this loss?

Eh, I don't know. But I prefer to think it's the latter, and the fact that I'm watching what I eat both on these "special" days and off tells me that's the case.

The proof will be in the pudding. Or the weigh-in, rather. Using a food metaphor in that situation was unfortunate.


Ms Snarky Pants said...

"The proof will be in the pudding. Or the weigh-in, rather. Using a food metaphor in that situation was unfortunate."

ROFLMAO Girl, you slay me!!! Happy almost your birthday!!! And have a little fun. You don't have to lose every week! :-D

Amanda said...

I think you are being sensbile an realistic. Not to mention, you've been losing weight cinsistently and rapidly, and maybe it's time to try on "moderation" for size and see how it feels to live in the new skin you've created. Just my 2 cents :-)

Jenn said...

I think this is totally realistic. Why set yourself up to fail, knowing you will be in situations where you can't eat as well as you'd like?
I think if you can maintain during this time, then you win!

poet said...

found your blog through a search on champix/chantix. we are on our day 3 pill. we already notice a slight difference in the amount we are smoking. wanted to know how you are doing now? are you still smoke free?
thank you, poet.

Amanda said...

Lesley, LOL! Glad you enjoyed. And yes I plan to have fun. Amanda, much appreciated. Moderation is a huge thing of mine actually, and it's good to have that pointed out to me so I remember what's important. Jenn, yes. Exactly. And I'd better maintain!!

Poet, I went to your blog and posted there, but the short story is yes, I'm still smoke-free :)