I'm not going to weigh in this Friday.
I don't even know if I'll weigh in at the beginning of November, which was my original goal date.
What I do know is that right now I'm hovering around 150. Whether that's above or below is up in the air, but I can tell the ballpark from how my pants are fitting. And not to be too graphic, but I can also tell from how the skin sits on my abdomen. I don't have a huge amount of redundant skin at this point, but my time in obesity (sounds like a prison sentence) combined with two pregnancies where, if eating were a gauge, I should have been Octomom twice... well, it's going to take its toll somehow.
So anyway, I recognize the draping pattern of my skin, and that tells me I'm right at 150, probably a bit below.
If I saw that on the scale there would be fallout of the negative sort, but not knowing what the scale says is really helping me to stay on track. If I weighed myself I'm sure I'd overeat. And I'd do it because either a) eating well for x-number of weeks obviously hasn't done any good, so I might as well enjoy myself, or b) I've done so well that I deserve to eat, dangit!
Yeah. Not good. And I wish I weren't like that because I'd really like to know what I weigh, but there you have it.
So instead I'm going to get on the treadmill tonight and do the first night of C25K again, after nine months off from running after my stress fractures (for the record my bone density test came back just fine, so my doctor and I have collectively thrown our hands in the air for a cause). And then I'll ignore the fried chicken sitting in the fridge (I've been ignoring it since I bought it -- it's for the boys in the house), and the chili, and instead I'll dive for the Moroccan chickpeas and quinoa, and half an avocado.
And if I must, I still have the calorie allotment for one Biscoff cookie, and as much black coffee as I can hold.
Anyone else who has a twisted relationship with the scale, however it works, please share. Quirkiness loves company ;)
Okay, I'm dressed, I'm hydrated, and I'm off. See you on the other side!
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